I've typed this up a dozen different ways and I cant seem to find a way to make it flow nicely so ill just come out and say it. You have loved me and my family so well and without knowing it your love has healed many wounds I never even knew I had. I don't know how to tell you that when we pass by one another each week. I see so many of your faces and I remember all these beautiful moments of really good love you've shown and a major weakness I have is not being able to show appreciation as well as I should, so if I may just take a moment id love to explain just how you've affected me
So when we arrived I braced myself for your criticisms, but I heard of none. I was prepared to fight for my marriage when you inevitably tried to take too much of my husbands time, but it was never necessary. Then I guarded my heart like a shield when we told you of our adoption expecting your unwelcomed words of caution. Your responses shocked me every time.
Instead this was what you all did. (oh geeez... let me just quickly grab a tissue.I can feel it already) Instead your leadership put no expectations on me as ferrills wife. I was given the freedom to ask God where I should be in each season. Often staff were away attending their children's activities. Only once had I ever known a head pastor not attend his own staff meeting because it was his sons Birthday and he was taking the day off. I have watched you do nothing but praise my husband for his service to this congregation. But for me personally this big moment was with my daughter. If I could have had it my way we would have just shown up one day with a new addition. I prefer to be private. My heart truly struggled sharing the journey to adopt, but God knew we would need you. And we did. You see, YOU helped me become a mom. You watched us with love go through that process and your love and kindness changed me. You shared our excitement, or joy, our loss our hurt. You stopped me in the hallways and spoke life over us and with each moment a wall in my heart got weaker and weaker I remember each one of you during that season and when she was finally here your response was so incredible. Your prayers, your giving, your love for us gave me the greatest gift I've yet to ever receive on this earth. You, in a way, made my dreams come true. The very ones id dreaded. The people who threatened me and made me cry in a closet have done nothing but give me grace and show kindness and all I can say is thank you. I know one day when I look back at my life this church will hold one of the sweetest places in my heart, in so many ways it already does.
Love is Patient and kind.
It wont envy or boast.
It is not prideful and does not dishonor.
It isn't self seeking, angry and keeps no record of wrong.
It hates what is evil and loves truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.